And then there are days where I feel like I’m on top of the world. Days where I feel like I have people who actually care about me, people who, dare I say it, LOVE me.
I was at O—B—C— this weekend. I really like Thelma. She’s so funny but not in a comedienne way you know. Just the way she gets stressed and the way she reacts to stuff. I was making a video and she said something about being glad to work with me. And Evelyn. Let me just say, we pretty much bonded this Saturday. We talked about people and life and how she used to scare me. Then we put a checkerboard pattern on the floor with the foam mats that got for the kitchen. And working at O—B—C— has really helped me bond with the Lindermans, I have to say. Mrs. and I are much closer than we used to be. And Mr. and I, though we’ve always been pretty tight, have a lot more to chat about. I love it.
I have to say, I missed Art and Donna this weekend but they will have a special surprise waiting for them.
And even here, there are a couple people I really appreciate having around. Or who I really appreciate being able to text when I’m up to my ears in other people’s dirty plates and insanity running rampant around the kitchen. (They probably don’t realize quite how “attached” I think I’m becoming. They don’t realized that they’re “stuck” with me now.) If you’re reading this… 😉
These other days when the sun is shining and I feel like the person I want to be are fantastic. It’s like my life is actually going ok. I feel like I can be an encouragement to others and that as much as I give to the people I care about, I’ll never run out. And it’s because I get that back. It’s mutual. Unlike some friendships I’ve had where I give until I have nothing left and I just break down.
But today, this week, right now, I feel like I am pretty much where I want to be in life. No, it’s not perfect. I forget to read for a class or can’t figure out what to do about my “future” but it all pales in comparison.
That’s really all I have to say right now. Have a brazzle dazzle day!